Category: Writers Block
Heart of Ice
You have made my heart explode with happiness,
You have also made it break into a million pieces,
First with your uplifting nature,
Then with your rejection because you decided to take the first human contact
That came along.
I thought we had something,
Something so much more than friendship growing between us,
Then you just one day dismiss the possibility of anything
Ever happening between us.
You dismiss it,
Just like that,
Just like the flip of a light switch,
Flip, chance gone, because you decided to become somebody’s experiment.
You’re not the person,
I thought you were,
You say I should know you,
But I don’t feel I do anymore…
I strangely don’t miss the way you strung me along,
Just like certain people said you would.
But you’ve created this heart of ice,
That nobody will get into for a long long time.
I shouldn’t let you do this to me,
I deserve so much better.
I’m not letting you run back to me if you decide to,
I’m nobody’s fucking experiment,
That’s what I have biology lab for.
So, here’s to not letting you get to me.
I think I might have loved you,
But I don’t know,
I’m trying to block the hurt I really felt… or feel???
This heart of ice remains,
Until someone can penetrate it and make it warm again,
I can become the actress and turn off my feelings,
Turn them (my romantic ones, the ones that cause love) completely off for a while,
This is because of you,
I should have listened to others and not let you have so much power over me.
You don’t have that power anymore,
It’s done.
I’m done…
I felt you were this mythological creature,
Who cast this weird spell over me every time you said hi to me,
And I still feel that way, to a degree.
The heart racing,
The unexplicable feelings of love for you,
That are wrong to even feel...
A part of me weakens,
when you talk to me,
or attempt to anyway these days.
I still miss you like crazy,
but whY? Why? Why?
I know I shouldn't.
I still dream about you,
what we could have had,
you say you're waiting for love,
well, here it is,
right in front of you,
and you won't even give it a chance.
You're a hypocrite,
and I don't associate with hypocrites...
I'm so confused,
I love you...
Sounds painful.
Believe me, you'll find the strength to move on.
Thanks for posting this.
What a good piece of work. it gets out the emotions.
awww i like it, i feel your pain chicka
hang in there
wow! How true and sad. those of us that know you love you in our own way. Although it hurts like hell, in time you will be well.
Aww. thanks for all your support to everyone that posted a reply to this. *smiles* I think I'm feeling better already. Well, let's not go that far yet. I'm getting there, slowly.